To Kill Apologies

 

TO KILL APOLOGIES

 

I keep talking about suicide but I won’t do it.

It’s too ultimate.

I want to be temporary.

I want to live at the end of a fishing line

And be pulled onto the deck

With my gut not eaten.

I want to cut my mind into little fish chunks.

I want to chum the scum of my derogation

And gather myself back into a bait bag,

Find a reason to catch myself in the chaotic ocean.

I am bothered by the bother of extraneous thoughts.

They attack me like snipers.

I want to shoot back at the jihadists.

Islamophobia is a compliment.

I pat myself on the back for recognizing radical cruelty.

To forgive killers is to endorse their terrorist ways.

I forgive myself for hating killers but I don’t forgive killers

For killing Americans.

I want to kill apologies.

I want to end the beheadings by cutting off my thumb

And sticking it down Islamic throats.

David Lawrence

David Lawrence has a Ph.D. in literature. He has published over 200 blogs, 600 poems, a memoir “The King of White-Collar Boxing,” several books of poems, including “Lane Changes.” Both can be purchased on Amazon.com. He was a professional boxer and a CEO. Last year he was listed in New York Magazine as the 41st reason to love New York.

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